Jul 16

I’m broken.

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I’m broken and I don’t know if I can fix it. My eyes…they keep leaking. It’s so out of the blue. And when they leak I make this uncontrollable sobbing sound. It’s kind of pathetic, really.

I also fell and broke my spirit. I’ve been trying to put it back together but sometimes I’m not careful and it just falls apart on me. James is really good at picking up the pieces….he’s done it countless number of times. But no matter how hard he tries, even he can’t keep it together for me. I wonder where I can get a new one.

Oh, and I’ve also lost my hope. Do you know where I put it last? I don’t think I’ve blogged about it but I do care for it very much and I seem to have misplaced it. Perhaps someday it will turn up again but I’m starting to learn to live without it.

  • yeah, i know what you mean about being far away and many times i wish you lived closer. i cant wait to see you ....and so soon!!!

    xoxox
    z
  • Hey Zoster,

    I wish I could be there to help...sometimes I feel so mad at myself for putting myself so far away from everyone I love. I will be home soon, and I am so looking forward to it.

    x Caitlin
  • Beaner
    Siskos,
    I love ya and miss ya! Hope today is a better day. Be only as strong as you need to be and let Jamie handle the rest. He will help you find your happiness again. I promise : ) Call me anytime if you need to chat.

    Janine
  • your blind support is VERY uplifting. i want to thank you but somehow words don't seem like they are strong enough....but thank you :)

    z
  • Matik72
    You are not alone. I hope that helps in some small way. :-)
  • Here's hoping you get better soon :)
  • Zoe. I know it may not feel like things are going well, but you will find your way.
  • Megan
    I've taken my eyes to the mechanic, the doctor and to the little repair shop down the street to no avail... apparently they are meant to leak and come with sounds

    My spirit has been broken too once or 500 times- you could even say i've been punched in the feelings, which is just as uncomfortable as it sounds- but I somehow always manage to re-build most of it with borrowed pieces and alot of paste (but not the kind you can eat)

    Writing about things helps, especially because your keyboard doesn't get uncomfortable with leaks but it also lets people know that you need to have a little borrow of their hope, spirit and love. Remember you have lots of people who love you and will share pieces of themselves so you don't get too lost
  • Oh Zoe, I understand that feeling. My heart goes out to you. Hope sometime hides on us, but it is always there, curled up deep inside. It will wake up and stretch itself again. If I can do anything at all...
  • thanks for your support guys but this is something I think i need to deal with. i was having another rough night and i thought that writing would help me feel better...and it did.

    again....thanks. it's a good feeling to feel looked after.

    z
  • omg I'm sorry you're feeling down..:( if you ever do need someone to chat with..feel free to look me up. DM me, or FB me..sorry I just saw this posting I check ur blog but it doesn't always load for me..
  • This does not sound good :( what's going on. Can I help?
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